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Posted on June 07, 2009 @ 12:47 am
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No one ever uses this anymore. Everyone just uses facebook and stuff.
Lately I've just been feeling miserable. Mentally and physically. I noticed it last weekend, I thought I was just cuz of work that day, but it just didn't go away. I don't know what my issue is. The littlest things can annoy me and get me all upset, which makes me feel like I'm turning into my mother which really scares the hell out of me. And all we do is argue with each other which doesn't help the situation. I haven't been getting a lot of sleep either, I'm running on like 13 hours for the week maybe. I think I'm just more frustrated with myself more than anything. So I really need to fix that.
I'm gonna go to school and I'm gonna get what I need to get done. I'm so sick of Lymans too, so I'm prolly gonna quit soon. I think it's a good portion of my problem to begin with. The more I work with the public, the more I seem to dislike people. It's starting to disgust me. So I think I'm just gonna do school and watch my cousin's baby for her.
I also have to deal with one other issue, but it helps that Steph is in the same boat and we're gonna be each other's support system and help each other through it.
I think the weather has also had a big hand in my gross mood. Too much rain, I need to be able to go outside and walk or something cuz it helps me clear my head. But the constant crap has gotta stop, it's June for crying out loud, it should not be cold and wet all the time.
I am happy however that I have my glider, she tends to lessen my bad mood. She's a spoiled little brat, I love her so much.
This is getting to be long and pointless so I'll stop here. I apologize to anyone at all who might have read this. =/
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Posted on December 06, 2008 @ 1:54 am
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I haven't actually used this in like forever.
So since I cannot really get myself to sleep I thought I may as well update.
I've been trying to find a second job, but I haven't heard back from anyone yet. =/
Work is blah, I don't work like half as much, but oh well, At least I get to see Kassie's and Steph's beautiful smiling faces. They make me lol quite a bit. The baby ducks are adorable, I worry for their safety though. We thought the yellow one died and Steph called me to tell me that it died last Friday, she didn't see it with it's momma or its siblings so I was highly upset. But then Sunday Kassie Called to tell me that she in fact saw the yellow one alive!! I was instantly in a better mood. The little guy still needs a name, but we are not creative enough.
Kassie and I have a lot of adventures, at least one or two every week. Tis fun, especially when she slams the breaks and turns the car around because we forgot whip cream. xD
I have not been getting good sleep at all for the past couple of weeks. I can't seem to get myself to sleep until after 1 or 2ish in the am, and it's been taking its toll on me. I think so far this week I have a total of maybe 14 hours....for the entire week.
Saturday night idk what brought it up, but I was thinking about Ally and I broke down and started crying, a lot. Then on Sunday, Kassie texted me to ask if I wanted to go to Mica Hill. (couldn't have been a more icky day to go, but that's when she decided to go...lol) I had to think about it some, but it's almost like she read my mind and knew I was upset or something. So I decided that maybe it was something I needed and said yeah let's go. But I didn't think I wanted it to be just us two, so I texted Steph and had to kinda persuade her to come with us. So after work Kassie showed up and we all left to go visit Ally. And what was strange to me was that we were all totally calm while we were there. We went, laid some things on her grave, talked to her a little and left. We went out to eat, hung out at my house for awhile then around 11 at night, well after they had went home, I completely broke down and just fell apart, so Steph and I texted each other cuz she was having the same problem and we were on the phone until like 1 am. I'm not so sure I was really ready for that trip... =/
Kassie and I had an epic adventure today, an ice cream adventure, I tried to make several people jealous like Kris, Meagan and Steph lol. We had brownie sundaes. Ice cream with brownies and hot fudge, caramel, whip cream and rainbow sprinkles, and it was quite gewd. We are thinking of getting a group together over Christmas break maybe to do a lock in laser quest adventure....anyone up for it?? Laser Quest, all night, getting jacked up on sugar and stuff?? You know you want too. =]
So yeah I think imma try to sleep again. Night ppl ♥♥
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Posted on September 28, 2008 @ 11:23 pm
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so the fair was pretty much amazing even though it rained most of the weekend. i felt pretty awesome and hardcore walking through the fair in the pouring rain and the ankle deep mud =]
i got to see kristyn and meagan who i have been missing terribly. and i ate the most food i have eaten in sooo long, food splurges like that only occur when kristyn is around lol
and when kassi kris and meg and i are together, amazing things happen. xD
sugar gliders are amazing fyi meg's sister erin got one, i think i may just have to go to her house every day now.
i really can't describe with words how awesome this weekend was.
i love my friends.
"you don't want to go to guatemala, you might not come back" haha kristyn
i heart you guys =D
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Posted on September 05, 2008 @ 11:25 pm
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Basically work is pretty good. I kinda like it, I don't love it, but it's alright. I was always freaking out in school because I wasn't exactly the best student ever...but now it's just kinda relaxed now that I don't have to flip out because I forgot to do this one assignment or I missed a detail on a project, and there's less drama, (at least so far) that's always a plus. Harvest is kinda a real pain and stressful when you're working that day...but that's easily taken care of after work.
So I suppose I'm pretty happy right now. Though I have to say that if it wasn't for Kassie I'd probably be going insane. It's nice to still have someone to hang out with.
I found out I might be going on a cruise sometime next year, Amber got accepted to perform on a cruise so Mom wants to make it a family vacation, which should be interesting. At least I won't have to worry about getting a passport. =]
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Posted on August 26, 2008 @ 10:11 pm
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Camping was amazing. It was so much fun we got lost, made 6 k turns, drove in a square to find salve regina, which is apparently located in the middle of a road...
and all those acts of love lmao. it tops the last time in the tent, which this year we put up all by ourselvs thank you very much. and we even hung up kristyn's speakers to the ceiling so we could listen to her ipod.
buying thongs and boxers at walmart then going to the beach and all of us getting burns on our legs and kassie and kristyn get burns on their backs, kassie won by far though, she was lobster red.
the whole first night was spent at watch hill and that was fun, throwing jellyfish and drawing in the sand and taking pictures. shopping in newport was fun too UGLY DOLLS!! and moving the tent from one campsite to the other to prevent the wrath of the park ranger lol.
twas fun and i'll miss Kris and Meg so much, love you guys soooo much!!
hopefully the 4 amigas will have more adventures soon.
thanks for putting up with me for all these years guys. Lord knows you deserve a medal for it. lol
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Posted on July 19, 2008 @ 10:56 pm
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Batman. was. amazing.
GO SEE IT!!!
that really did make my day, and heath ledger was amazing too
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Posted on July 14, 2008 @ 2:59 pm
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so basically we thought our cat milo was dead, he left our house limping and his head was cocked to the side and it just stayed like that, he was also making noises that suggested he was in pain, we assumed he went off to go die somewhere he was gone for 5 days.....
the cat came back, still looking the way he did 5 days earlier, only now he was also walking sideways. i didn't look at him but from what my dad saw, it didn't look so great. so he locked him up in the bathroom and put a sign up not to go in there because the cat came back and it was alive and it looked icky. so then my dad called the vet when he got home from work and told them something was wrong and he didn't know what it was, but if it was anything serious we were prepared to put him down.
so he goes to the vet with the cat and i assumed the cat would never come back, i get a call like 45 minutes later saying the cat has an inner ear infection and his whole ear canal is shot (but apparently it'll grow back O.o) and the cat needs to be on heavy antibiotics and they're making sure he didn't get rabbis or neurological damage, and because he hasn't had his vaccinations in like over a year, he needs to be quarantined for 14 days. but now all the akwardness of his walking sideways with his head to one side makes perfect sense...stupid me never thought about how when something's wrong with their ears or their whiskers have been chopped off they lose balance all together...uh dur. yeah i feel stupid
but then over the weekend whilst we were camping, the vet calls and says that because he hasn't scratched any of the animals and he's such a docile creature, he can come home if we keep him locked up in the house for 2 weeks. needless to say hunchback is coming home today....i can't believe we got so worked up over an ear infection....-_-'
so yeah that was my amazing story of the week
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Posted on June 24, 2008 @ 5:50 pm
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so we were driving emily home today
and dad went the "wrong way". i didn't really see what he meant until we got to lymans. and then i started bugging out and then we drove by the spot where Ally's car hit. i wasn't ready for it at all and so i broke down crying. then to make things even better...we drove past her house. the service was beautiful, i'm so glad we were all there for each other. this is still really rough and it'll take more time.
on a lighter note, i had fun at the brooks and dunn concert with my bf. i can't wait to burn papers tomorrow. and august is gonna be a good month cuz Breaking Dawn is finally coming to bookstores. =]
YAY FOR BURNING SCHOOL PAPERS!!!
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Posted on June 16, 2008 @ 9:06 am
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This still just doesn't feel real. I expected to just wake up and find out i was dreaming.
I wasn't... I really want someone to blame, her life was taken too soon. I was just talking and laughing with her last week. It's not fair. and thanks you guys for being there last night cuz idk what I would have done if you weren't. I miss her and that smile.
love you Ally
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Posted on June 15, 2008 @ 9:22 am
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Hey when do you guys think we're gonna do our dari serve run? Tuesday after practice? Are we gonna be doing anything at anyone's house this year? idk I was just kinda wondering about that, we've done something every year since we started high school, would be sad if we didn't do anything this year.
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I wish he'd just ask me out already
we're pretty much already together....
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THIS TOTALLY MADE MY DAY. IDC IF IT'S REAL OR NOT I AM IN LOVE WITH IT!!!
ZOMG IF IT IS REAL I MUST HAVE IT. IT'S A BEAST!!!!!
YOU KNOW YOU ARE STUNNED BY ITS BEAUTY. AND IF YOU ARE NOT...I HAVE NO WORDS FOR YOU JUST NOW..WHEN I THINK OF WHAT TO SAY TO YOU I WILL GET BACK TO YOU ON IT. STARE IN WONDER AT THE MOST GODLY THING I HAVE EVER SEEN. STARE!!!! That's all I just wanted to share this. I'm in love...Alec here just doesn't understand because he's a loser like that.
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Posted on March 10, 2008 @ 1:37 pm
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i'm really fuckin tired sitting in baldy's class with half an hour left of class bored as hell as always. alec is trying to tell me he knows where the merekats are in the sandiego zoo...he says it's across the elephant pit...we see no elephants in this pit...alec fails. imma take him out back and beat him to the ground. shanked motha fucka...stupid freshmen. btw alec says help for those who care..i doubt you do. stfu alec senior ftw! anyway yes i am bored and i cannot wait to come in at 9 tomorrow, extra sleep is gewd. i'm so bored so bored staring at this screen. grr moss for recording my ugly sounding rendition of little black rain cloud and playing it this morning. ugh i was tired and sleep deprived and i wasn't really thinking when i sang that to her. so not fair, i don't pull that kind of stuff on her. oh well i'm over it now. OH NOES BALDY'S COMIN!!!
ok imma go i'm sorry for posting this random, immature post, i just got bored. but if you took the time to read it..well..wow. lolol. ok i'm done now. alec is emo. haha i think he hates me, how cute.
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Posted on February 11, 2008 @ 1:42 pm
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So basically I'm sitting here in Web Design with like fifteen minutes left of class, bored as hell. I finished my assignment with twenty minutes to spare. This class is too easy for me, Mr. Travisano wants me out of here cuz I took the class already and it's too easy. I always get perfect scores on my assignments and on the quiz we just got back today. lolol. Most of the other kids are real slow and confused by all of this html stuff. But I'm not complaining bout all of it really, it's an easy A.
I don't know why people had all these horror stories about Miss Fernandez, she's really nice and Meagan and I are doing alright in her class and I just don't see why people were complaining. I can see that she's a hard grader and all, but that hasn't been much of an issue in that class. It could be that our class is just full of retards...but I'd like to think different....
I'm really pissed off cuz i can't really hear out of my right ear and that's been really troublesome today and the Web Design room has the fan going off the entire time and so i can't hear the bald man talk..not that it's a bad thing...just kinda annoying cuz i can't hear almost ANYTHING.
I really badly want to go to the Breaking Benjamin concert in March. I do believe that is what i will ask my parents for my birthday or something. Oh and I'm dog sitting again, starting Saturday and ending Monday...is there anyone who would be willing to keep me company in Bristol?? I don't blame anyone if they don't...just kinda throwing it out there.
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Posted on February 07, 2008 @ 7:41 pm
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things haven't been so great lately. my grandpa's sick, though no one cares to tell us exactly how sick. but my mom and her foster sisters have all been taking turns spending nights at his house taking care of him, so that leads me to believe that it might be bad. i remember him not looking so good the last time i saw him...makes me nervous. my mom's there tonight.
for once my grades came out alright, i didn't get grounded, my worst grade was a c- from citizenship with munson, but w/e idc about that class much, i passed, and i have all my competencies, and i'll have more than enough credits at the end of the year. i'll graduate, that's all that matters.
i haven't been able to get enough sleep in so long, i've tried going to bed earlier and all this other stuff to get me to sleep, nothing works. i only get like 4 hours of sleep if i'm lucky. i feel dead every morning coming into school, but i suppose that's how everyone feels. but i want sleep sooo bad. dad's taking me out driving sometime this weekend watch me like drive into a lamp post in the parking lot.
kinda random here but did anyone catch House on tuesday? i missed it and i would love to know what exactly i missed.
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Posted on January 16, 2008 @ 8:03 am
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yeah so jess fazzino and i are bored sitting here in the library, we're probably gonna go see mrs. selberg soon about our tests though, and hopefully she will know if we are exempt from the final, i really hope that happens. and i'm kinda happy i don't have midterms until monday, though it would prolly be better to have a day off lie in the middle or towards the end of exams. oh well. um anyway seniors, you guys wanna go see sweeny todd or somethin? not this weekend cuz i'm dogsitting and watching mindy's house while she's gone, but maybe the weekend after?
idk just a thought
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Posted on October 16, 2007 @ 9:15 pm
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so yeh im real sad now
[H]OUSE is not on tonight. i'm like really about to cry. that show is my life.
and yesterday i was informed not to go outside when it snows....or to eat it....not sure i wanna discuss why, lets just say it has somethin to do with santa claus and being up on the rooftop...alone...i always wondered why snow was white....anyway yeh imma go cry myself to sleep from all the disturbing stuff from today and yesterday..
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Posted on October 16, 2007 @ 1:24 pm
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happy day hansen is gone!!!!!!! and meagan and i got an A on our first draft. totally made my day. and even before i knew hansen was gone i did somethin stupid and meagan made the face i love so much. and lunch was too funny, i love kassie's theory of geneotyping or however you spell it. and then when i asked her how meagan and kristyn could even mate to make her...the only thing she could come up with was "IT WAS THE UNICORNS!!" ....yes moss...the unicorns...
and i gots a saftey pin!!
i love my friends...even though we are all mentally retarded when together...
actually, they need no help from me or each other...they're special on their own, not like i'm one to talk.
well anyway my point is today was amazing from lunch on.
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Posted on September 18, 2007 @ 4:32 pm
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These past couple weeks in school have been kinda stressful, guidance has me in a choke chain or somethin. all cuz i wanted to screw around with my schedule to get into photography. And now looking back at the way i've been to my friends these past couple weeks, even today, i haven't been such a great friend. i can't help but feel like they're upset by what i'm doing. i've been running around school and not spending enough time with anyone, and then when i'm with them i'm just cold and lifeless or so it seems; like all the happiness was sucked away. i should be just having fun with them as much as i can. and so for all of this guys, i'm sorry. i wanna make it up to you all. i'm really gonna try to fix the mess i made. you do mean the world to me and i love you to death.
please understand i'm just a little stressed and that this has nothing to do with any of you.
please forgive me
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Posted on August 31, 2007 @ 2:53 pm
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this week was prety interesting, i can already tell that there are certain classes that i will hate like citizenship class. and there are also the classes that will be my safe havens like comparative religion and creative writing. after yesterday's class i have decided to call comparative religions class "life support". but yeh it was good to see ppls again. and to some degree was nice to be back on a routine. gave me something to do other than sit around and become fat all over again. XD
going camping this weekend, prolly wont be back til monday but i will bring the cell so call if you need me.
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